I almost threw a chair towards my Papa yesterday for some reason.
Since yesterday, I had been feeling so guilty because I lost my temper and got angry for few minutes. I slapped myself few times and promised that I will try never to be angry any more. But, I was anxious to meet God and ask forgiveness from him.
So, when I met God today, the first thing I did was I said "Sorry God, for all the mistakes I did yesterday. I shamed you and lowered the value of being your child. Please don't be angry on me. I will try my best never to repeat it."
God smiled and held out his arms for a hug, and then said: Can I be angry on you? You are my child. What kind of father am I if I can't forgive my child for a mistake which she has been regretting since one whole day. Your feeling of regret is the real forgiveness that you have already asked me at least 10 times since yesterday. This shows that you honestly understand that you should not have lost your cool and that's a wrong thing. You have already gone back to your pure self again.
Then while I hugged him happily and got absorbed in his calmness, he continued : Every time you feel guilty inside yourself, that you have done anything that's not pure or you have hurt anyone, that means you just understood that you were not a pure soul at that time and have just come back to yourself. Try to repair the wrong u did or at least promise not to repeat that again. Your heart will tell you every time you do anything wrong. Listen to your heart each and every time if you want to stay as a pure soul else the dirt from your actions will hide your pure soul and ultimately, make it impure. And whenever you listen to your heart and act accordingly after a mistake, that's the greatest forgiveness you can ask from me or anybody.
I understood everything and remembered the reason why I lost my cool yesterday. So, I had to ask again: But God, what should I practically do when someone tells dirty things to me or does hurting things in front of me?
God replied back: I know what you are asking. Look, if someone talks dirty with you, it means that that person has already become an impure soul. Since you are God's child and have been on earth to spread love and purity, try to smile at the person and remind him/her that he/she is forgetting that he/she is a pure soul too and whatever he/she is doing is impure. If you fail a few times, than the most practical solution is that however close you have to interact with that person, keep your pure soul a little apart from the impure soul. Otherwise, it may make your soul impure too, which happened with you yesterday. You became impure for a few minutes. If you let your soul come in contact with that soul, it may progressively keep making you impure.
I was so happy and satisfied with this discussion and told: O God! You are great. Thank you so much. Please give me enough energy to love everybody today.
Then, I got lost in him and felt him all around myself giving me energy from all directions.
One more thing I experienced today. Earlier, I used to see God according to my imagination. Nowadays when I get absorbed in him and feel peace, I don't see him as earlier. I don't even see him actually. I can just feel him around me. When he hugs me, I can feel his arms as some cloudy mass which have an ocean of peace and love in them into which I get lost, deeper and deeper. Wow, I think he is around us all the time even on earth, but we fail to feel him because we don't concentrate enough. That means we ignore him around us and search for him in all other places. What an irony !!!
Since yesterday, I had been feeling so guilty because I lost my temper and got angry for few minutes. I slapped myself few times and promised that I will try never to be angry any more. But, I was anxious to meet God and ask forgiveness from him.
So, when I met God today, the first thing I did was I said "Sorry God, for all the mistakes I did yesterday. I shamed you and lowered the value of being your child. Please don't be angry on me. I will try my best never to repeat it."
God smiled and held out his arms for a hug, and then said: Can I be angry on you? You are my child. What kind of father am I if I can't forgive my child for a mistake which she has been regretting since one whole day. Your feeling of regret is the real forgiveness that you have already asked me at least 10 times since yesterday. This shows that you honestly understand that you should not have lost your cool and that's a wrong thing. You have already gone back to your pure self again.
Then while I hugged him happily and got absorbed in his calmness, he continued : Every time you feel guilty inside yourself, that you have done anything that's not pure or you have hurt anyone, that means you just understood that you were not a pure soul at that time and have just come back to yourself. Try to repair the wrong u did or at least promise not to repeat that again. Your heart will tell you every time you do anything wrong. Listen to your heart each and every time if you want to stay as a pure soul else the dirt from your actions will hide your pure soul and ultimately, make it impure. And whenever you listen to your heart and act accordingly after a mistake, that's the greatest forgiveness you can ask from me or anybody.
I understood everything and remembered the reason why I lost my cool yesterday. So, I had to ask again: But God, what should I practically do when someone tells dirty things to me or does hurting things in front of me?
God replied back: I know what you are asking. Look, if someone talks dirty with you, it means that that person has already become an impure soul. Since you are God's child and have been on earth to spread love and purity, try to smile at the person and remind him/her that he/she is forgetting that he/she is a pure soul too and whatever he/she is doing is impure. If you fail a few times, than the most practical solution is that however close you have to interact with that person, keep your pure soul a little apart from the impure soul. Otherwise, it may make your soul impure too, which happened with you yesterday. You became impure for a few minutes. If you let your soul come in contact with that soul, it may progressively keep making you impure.
I was so happy and satisfied with this discussion and told: O God! You are great. Thank you so much. Please give me enough energy to love everybody today.
Then, I got lost in him and felt him all around myself giving me energy from all directions.
One more thing I experienced today. Earlier, I used to see God according to my imagination. Nowadays when I get absorbed in him and feel peace, I don't see him as earlier. I don't even see him actually. I can just feel him around me. When he hugs me, I can feel his arms as some cloudy mass which have an ocean of peace and love in them into which I get lost, deeper and deeper. Wow, I think he is around us all the time even on earth, but we fail to feel him because we don't concentrate enough. That means we ignore him around us and search for him in all other places. What an irony !!!
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